Losing Weight is Hard

When I started my new job (over 2 years ago) I traveled a lot.  Not just to lame cities like middle of nowhere Texas but San Francisco, New York, Seattle, you know citites with really good food!  When you are expensing food, you dont eat sandwiches and water!  My waist paid the price and I gained 15 pounds before I decided to get serious about eating right.  The below pic is at my heaviest.  I know it doesnt look like it but yeah this trip was miserable for me weight wise.  It was hot and, ok, TMI, I could feel the fat rolls.  Never before had I noticed this and I vowed to never again either.

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I decided to start with Weight Watchers and it worked really well for me.  I lost 12 pounds in 6 months.  I know that doesnt sound like much fast but I had some factors in this:  I was still traveling for work and sometimes didnt have access to anything remotely healthy to eat (not even a subway yall).  I was already pretty active and I didnt weigh a lot to begin with.  I needed to get rid of the extra weight but when you dont have a lot to lose it takes a little longer.  Below is our next trip 10 pounds lighter later 🙂  I think the biggest difference is in my face, but my legs were thinner too which was nice walking around the parks all day.  Ladies Im sure you follow me.

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With Weight Watchers by Thanksgiving I had lost 15 pounds.  My goal was 20 and I was so happy to have reached so close to my goal before the holidays.  I had a half marathon training plan to keep me on track and everything was going really well.  Weight Watchers did really well for me with the point counting and all.  It got me to eat more fruits and veggies since those are (majority of the time) zero points.  I felt better and had more energy yay!!

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I stopped WW in January because its like $19/month and since I had already seen great results I thought I could stop and keep it up on my own.  This is when I switched to My Fitness Pal which is a free food tracking app/website.  It seemed fine since it synched with my FitBit.  I could track my exercise and food all in one place.  This is when I started to see the results drop off.  Now when I say results I mean weight, not necessarily the way my body looks.  While I did overall well with the calories my weight didnt change, in fact, I started gaining a few of those pounds back.  I think though Im at the stage of having lost most of the excess easy to lose fat and am now gaining muscle.  I dont know the science or anything behind it but I do know muscle weighs more than fat so the more muscle I gain it stands to reason there will be an increase in the scale.

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Truth time yall…being a woman I want to see a small number.  I want to be below this magical number in my head that really means nothing.  I have been and still do struggle with that.  Accepting that the number is just that and its more about how I feel and my clothes fit is more important.  The above picture I felt pretty good about the way everything was looking even though the scale wasnt exactly where I wanted it to be.  I struggle with this on a daily basis and I just wanted to keep it real with everyone.

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I dont think it matters at the end of the day if I was using Weight Watchers or My Fitness Pal.  Both are great tools and both have worked for me in one way or another.  I enjoy My Fitness Pal a little more simply because it has tons of foods loaded on it and I dont have to calculate points.  I do find that when I dont use the tool I slip and my weight gain is fat trying to creep back and not muscle.  I dont diet per-say but I do watch what I eat, try the best I can to keep the desserts to a minimum and watch the carbs.  Its tough, there are times where I just want to eat all the things. Sometimes I cave, but most of the time I am able to keep my eye on the prize and that is feeling fantastic about how I feel in my own skin.

I know there is a ton of negative media around body image and thats totally not what this post started out to be but more of a comparison between My Fitness Pal and Weight Watchers.  Sometimes things just get a mind of their own and go where they need to not where you planned.  I think weight issues are a universal truth for everyone is some way.  This is mine that I thought I would share.

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I still to this day shy away from tight fitting tops because I still feel pretty self-conscious in them.  The above picture, yeah totally thought I was looking fab then realized nope fat but there’s that negative body image talking again.  Its a work in progress and I am not here to diminish the fact that for some people losing weight is like climbing mount Everest.  I think it is easier for some than others but I also think there is a level of commitment to yourself to be the best you.  I think the best me is fit, in shape and kick ass.  What the best you is may be something different and thats cool too.  You do you!

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5 Comments Add yours

  1. Ashley says:

    Great post!!! Hit me up if you ever want nutrition/workout tips. 😉 I think the majority of people can relate to this blog post. It’s all about balance and moderation, as with anything in life. Definitely don’t depend on the scale to make you feel happy!

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  2. Thanks for writing such an honest post! Bad body image can be such a bitch some days. Just when you think you’re looking good, it catches up with you! Dunno if this will help you but I try to give my body compliments on what it can do as well as how it looks. Like appreciating my feet for putting up with endless pounding of pavements, or arms for giving me the momentum to get up hills. It helps sometimes!

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    1. whostardis says:

      love that! your right we really do have to give our parts props for putting up with our crazy lol

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  3. Christian K. says:

    I’ve used WW in the past and I agree, it does a good job. I haven’t tried MFP but you’re the third person who’s mentioned it so maybe I will give it a try.
    I’ve been doing a lot of lifting with a 12-week program from Lee Labrada on Bodybuilding.com (not necessarily for bodybuilders!) and P90 and running. Between that and portion control, I’m trying less to have a low weight (though that would be nice) but to just get stronger and be healthier.

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    1. whostardis says:

      yes, stronger is the goal! good luck with your journey 🙂 You should try MFP since its free you can stop if you just dont like it that was the best part for me.

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